we already reaches the end…

I’m sorry, GOODBYE…

I wonder, would you miss me when I’m gone, when I’m not able to be anywhere for you, sharing stories or keeping you secret as I always did. Will you miss me?/

I miss you…I miss the old you, when u be the person that could bring smile in my face, and sharing stories together. I remember u always be the person that I comfortable when hanging together but today, u always be the last person I want to talk to…because u show the same on me, like I’m the last person u want to see…

If one day u realize that I’m running far from u, and u decide to blame me and let all the burden over me, think it back,…!! Don’t ever try pretending not to realize, for all the things that I did is all because of you!! People got their own limit of patient, and it’s always being our responsibilities to make choice…for me, the best choice is leaving u, staying far from u. I felt that u only using me for

ur

own purpose and

ur

agenda, I’m sorry to feel that way, but u, yourself let me be.

I want to stop hoping that the old person of you would came back…because I knew u totally are different person today…and there is no way to return back time. I was also was the new person today, and this new me was created from the pieces of my broken heart, which most of it came from u…

I decide to let go of you, all the memories of you that killing me most of these time. So let me leave, there is no reason to stay anymore, u don’t need me anymore, or maybe u never ever need me…I wish you in my shoes, so u will feel the pain, I wish u understand but u was the person that will never want to understand, that will never willing to care. Maybe u felt comfortable for the BEAUTIFUL LIFE that you got, the people around u that love u, that care for u.., you would never worry to be alone, because u always know the best time to find others for help, for company, and others would always ready for u in anytime and for everything u wish for, and that also was what I’m doing; for all these time-be here for u. but it seem not good enough for you to notice me, or at least showing some appreciations… -don’t u see, for what I did, and the people around u that care for u, that always be in ur side when u got problem, when u needed support, needed help, all that was came honestly…because of our care, n love. But I found that u don’t much appreciate that, u will came n go… that why I said, u too comfortable with ur life, and believing people will always be here n there for u…but please notice dear, things will not always be the same, someday when people realize ur pattern, u will losing their trust, and somehow they will tend to be far from u, like what I’m doing right now…

I do understand you, maybe I was the person that fully understand u, better that anybody else, better than u, yourself… because I was the one who saw u, from a distance that u never notice me… this is because I do care for u for all these year, and because of love…u make me blind, or choose to be blind, I want be the best for u, so u could see me, I want to do anything for u so u stick with me, I want to show u how much I care, so u appreciate me, but… I was such a dreamer… believing that u will turn to be as I wish u could be, it not happens. I should realize that, or I do realize that from beginning but I the one that refuse to believe and choose to be blind.

You are ‘came n go’ person, u may came with ‘everything’ and leaving me ‘nothing’…so, why do u think I still treat u good even for the bad things u did, even when I already capture ur skills. Person in my position should be very anger of whatever u have made to my life, but I never show. I could blame u for the mess you gave, but I never did.

Don’t u afraid for what I could do?? Don’t u see, I am in dangerous position for u, I got 1001 reason/secret that I kept which can destroy ur BEAUTIFUL LIFE in just a second…if it happen, u may lost everything u own; LOVE, TRUST, LIFE!! …but..…I’m not that bad, maybe Not Yet!!

For whole these while, I just hope that u could see the mess that u bring, and feel sorry for that, with honest. Maybe a simple apologize could heal me a little bit. I wait to see u change, to b better good person, to admit your fault, to be regret for

ur

selfishness. But, u are so ego to admit all those, and that disappointed me and I’m really frustrated…each day, it turn me lost my trust on u…

Yet, still I can’t erase u out of my mind, picture of u and those beautiful and damn memories we had together still bounding me, its like the pieces of puzzle that not stick together anymore but scattering in my head, in my mind, inside my heart…

But dear listen up, I promise u one, I will make distance for both of us. Things will never be the same again….we already reaches the end…

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